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I think it’s important to share this because the influx of bullshit artists on the socials proclaimating about Esoteric Wisdom is wild and a little OOC.

This Time is insane. It’s like Dave Chapelle said in his new standup…it’s madness. It’s infested with those who worship HYSTERIA, possession, crimes against the human soul, crimes against children (my trigger), etc… although- Dave chapelle and the rest will say “don’t try to figure it out”…and to that I say…it’s very easy to figure out, everything after the Inversion of The Mother, Sophia, The God of this Manifested Universe…is just noise. (But that’s a story for another post 💙).

Anywho…. The way this bullshit system has set up their INDUSTRY of spiritual enlightenment is either a) you pay a fee for “enlightenment” 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 or…

b) you still pay with your eyes and Time by following younger souls who do not possess the Wisdom in their hearts but want to tell you alllll the things you’re doing wrong and they’re doing right. Sometimes bringing those searching to be infected with fear and doubt because they’re struggling.

So here’s my story…a key to this was realized last week when I finally acknowledged my most recent past life that happened in the 1920s/1930s, I didn’t make it very far age wise because I was either kidnapped, an orphan, or born into a poor family who was a part of the “satanic” families and was abused, raped, tortured, and murdered at a very young age. Past lives are tricky to understand. But they hold a resonance inside of you that when you hit it unlocks so much…and tears usually follow.

But let’s talk about this life…at a very young age, either 5 or 6 I was sexually abused by a neighbor. I remember having this little innocent crush on him because he would always come outside in the yard in the condos I lived in and play with us kids. Which I now understand is grooming. I remember all the adults saying to stay away from him but back in the 80s and 90s we’d go outside and rage and there were no adults present. Except for the predator. So that happened…I don’t remember it, but I remember following him down into his basement and I remember leaving his house and him telling me “remember nothing happened”. And I remember telling my Pops this, he went silent, and shortly there after I’m assuming my Pops threatened his life because he wouldn’t acknowledge us kids and moved out quickly. RIP to the Great Yard Man. My Dad was my best friend my whole life. His death from stage 4 esophageal cancer wrecked me. But…my mother, who I love NOW (lol we had a hard relationship for a very long time) really took it bad, and I didn’t really grieve like I should have after he died. That was in Sept of 2017.

In 2019 I was a mess. Severely depressed. I had this innate understanding that something was wrong here. It made no sense. The world shouldn’t be the way it is. I’d cry on my way to work because I hated my job. I’d cry at night because of the sadness of losing the only person (my Pops) that I ever trusted. I mean I always struggled pre-kundalini awakening the first time I meditated on 5/1/2020, Beltane. I did some fucked up shit. I abused a lot of drugs. I used them to escape. I ALWAYS felt different. I hated myself because I couldn’t understand why I wasn’t just like everyone else. Why didn’t I want to work so hard at a meaningless job so I could make money to do things. Why did I have such a problem with “getting it together”, being organized, being on top of things, paying my “bills” on time.

I now realize I was rebelling from this bullshit system of control from the get go. And also – after I was sexually abused I went from this adorable, cute, little girl full of joy and love to a girl who didn’t want to shower, started dressing like a boy, anything I could do to keep people away from me. A natural reaction to being sexually abused by an adult at a young age. You don’t realize how your soul and body will put up protections against being violated which, when not dealt with, turn into awful habits.

So 2019…I was ready to check out, I had a plan, I was ready to go. I didn’t want to be in this meaningless world of randomness anymore. I KNEW there was something more but it felt like it wasn’t here. So I wanted to go there…the universe was this vast thing with all these “aliens” and galaxy’s and other worlds. And I was over this boring ass life. I even started writing notes to those I loved in my head. I was supposed to get ankle surgery and I planned on taking the whole bottle of pain pills they would give to me and saying see ya next time! Please note I AM NOT SUICIDAL, I WAS DEPRESSED BECAUSE THE FAKE WORLD THESE SATANIC EVIL MEN HAVE CREATED IS MEANINGLESS but I Am ALIVE NOW…and when you’re an Angel of Light incarnate, and you’re programed into this bullshit existence they’ve warped us in…it’s fucking painful, and borrrrrrrrinnnngggg, and meaningless.

So, it was I believe April 2019…I was ready to go but something inside was like, you gotta give this one more shot. I was going to see Trey Anastasio Band and I’m like ok…you’re gonna do some LSD, have an experience and make a decision. Either you’re doing it or you’re gonna figure some shit out on a wild ride with beautiful music and give a go one more time. That concert changed my life. TAB played Rise Up/Come Together and I had my eyes closed the whole time and tears were streaming down my face. Something clicked. It changed me. It might have been the venue and being so close to the band and being with so many of my (normie) crew I adore but that show saved this current life of mine. I woke up the next morning with that beautiful new outlook on life you get while taking LSD for a purpose, and not for the mind control these stupid CIA fucks use it for.

I decided that night to live and give it another try. I went to therapy, I went on antidepressants. I did all the things. It worked for a little while. But therapy now a days…you don’t get a psychiatrist, you get someone collecting a pay check. Private practice is the way to go but I couldn’t seem to find one. Anywho- I went off the anti depressants in maybe Jan of 2020. March 2020 Covid hits.

Now I’ve always had the ability to predict and feel things before they happen. But it was sporadic. I always loved crystals but was overwhelmed thinking about trying to learn about them and other spiritual topics. Where do you start? What does it even mean? Etc…and the “coincidences” started driving me crazy. I realize now many of them were artificial from this digital web of hell we all live in but it ignited something in me. A lot of it though was, id think of someone and then they’d text me. Or things along those lines. The line between natural Nature based, spirit involved synchronicities and artificial technology based synchronicities is severely blurred right now. At this point I only trust animals and The Wind and human interaction, which I suggest you only trust as well. Otherwise you’ll get sucked down into digital hell like I did. But came out on top.

So I said to myself, I need to get a psychic reading. When I was 20 I got my first reading, and I was skeptical as shit but I remember the psychic saying to me something along the lines of “are you into this” or “spiritually minded” something like that…and I was like I dunno why? And he said your Aura is beautiful, it’s pink and purples. And 20 years ago I had no idea what that even meant. But now I do. And it’s special. The next reading I got was in Salem, and the psychic, who was absolutely fantastic, I’ve seen her 3 times since…and would love to see her again, but the first reading I got from her…it was like I was a spark that Spirit and our loved ones who had passed used as a way to get through to others who were on the trip. She kept telling me this story about a woman who had passed, who had children, and it was winter and I think she said there was a van involved. Come to find out, my moms dear friend who was on the trip, her daughter had a tragic accident where her child was in her van, put the van into gear, and the van ran her over, sending her off to the next life. Not only that but my friend who passed away and was dating another friend of mine came through to pass on a message about a baby they had aborted which I didn’t even know about. Sometimes you realize you’re like an amplifier. Or a messenger. or just someone who spirits Trust to relay a message.

So anyways- I say this to myself and sure enough, a day or two later, in my Facebook feed this cult (which I didn’t realize at the time it was a cult) pops into my newsfeed giving “free” readings live. People with “spiritual non profit foundations” like them never give anything out free. It’s always some type of way to pull you into their orbit or pocket world. Anywho, I end up getting a reading from this dude, he tells me I’m a “child of light” and need to meditate. That was on 5/1/2020, also known as Beltane. I meditated that night, had a full blown kundalini awakening, and was like HOLY SHIT ALL THIS IS REAL!!! And it’s been a wild ride ever since. The remembering, in times like these, is fucking bananas. It shouldn’t have been this way. But it is.

So back to my point of sharing this…so many of us are broken. I mean we all are. But you might certainly be an incarnated Angel if…

…you can’t stand the 9-5 bullshit

-you have no desire to be a part of this “world” of greed and control

-you rebel in the most weird ways that make you feel like you’re unworthy or not good enough or not a productive member of “society”

-you feel like there’s something SO much bigger then this and you’re a part of it

-you got sucked down into the New Age pipeline of bullshit influencers that brought you no enlightenment or spiritual knowledge and they made you feel like they were chosen or special or something more than what you are

-you’ve been targeted and psychically attacked and attacked by DEWS that are so painful you curl up in a ball and cry from the pain.

-you’re losing ur shit right now because of the Epstein stuff and you don’t even know where to turn because this fake ass digital world of hell uses a sliver of Truth surrounded by mounds of bullshit to lore you in…

And a bunch of other things…

But just know- after this Epstein file release we need to realize what people project on the internet and media (hell) is NOT WHO THEY ARE. and I will do my best to try and work out a system of development for those of us struggling (my past blogs of working with the forces of Archangel Michael WORK! If it worked for me it will work for you, gotta clean up our programed brain) who have been attacked, who are losing their minds because they’ve been put in some nonsense mental cage by wicked people who believe themselves to be some arbiters of judgement but in actuality ITS THEIR TIME OF JUDGEMENT WHICH IS BASED ON HOW YOU TREAT OTHERS! …honestly though I think psychic assassins don’t even realize that’s what they are in many cases. They are just so severely mind controlled and traumatized that when they run into people like Us who radiate Light, Life, Love so deeply it triggers their programming to hate and attack us. At least that’s what I tell myself because from the evil I experienced so far, I don’t want to believe it was intentional. At least not with the radicalized foot soldiers. The faces who desperately want fame, they know what they’re doing. Shitty mind controllers.

So anywho- I know that soon, those of you touched by The Mother will find this blog. And there are billions of us. And this is my suggestion…fuck anyone who wants to try and correct your thinking, change your path, act like they are “chosen” etc…because I’ll tell ya what…when I went tits up down the rabbit hole and stumbled upon the QANON targeting of angels of light PSYOP, I was fine; until I posted my right hand on Twitter (where it told all of us to stay glued to). And after that, i wouldn’t wish what I experienced on my worst enemy (and I don’t have many; only the goons in MAGA).

Some of us, who want nothing but Truth, Light and Love to ignite back into the mind of humanity get a mark, and those evil assholes, they know it. But just know, I’m not sharing this because I think im different than anyone. I’m exactly like you are…but my soul- it’s done this before. And we get a little Grace from God to make sure we remember who we are and why we’re here. And that checking out early is not the answer. We will get into The Order of The Blue Rose and its mission soon. The order of my spiritual lineage. You see- the color of the Rose is so important. But here’s my mark. In the shape of the Holy Trinity. With 4 dots, just like how the Seraphim are shown with 4 heads and 3 wings. 4 heads- collecting the limbs of God. 3 wings- the material, psychic, and spiritual worlds this universe is created from. We are the Saints who come back to amplify the Word (frequency of Christ) throughout this World.

I wish you all everything you deserve. Your inheritance of Peace and Happiness and Prosperity through the Light of Christ Blissfulness. To experience the tears of joy that stream down our face when the Spirits of the Good God come close to us. And we feel this, by letting go of everything we think we know, and riding the waves, accepting what we can not change (these evil fuck heads who rape children and worship FALSE IDOLS), and never giving up Trust and Faith and Hope. The Mother’s Light grows stronger everyday. And it’s because of Us remembering. And of course, the cycles of Time. Don’t listen to the ignorant con-spiritual CIA folk who want to keep you in fight or flight. Because this World is beautiful. And if you’re struggling and feel like you have no one to turn to, The Angels are always there…and soon, we will be expanding and you will be able to find your tribe. We’re all in this together. Be kind, even to those who don’t deserve it. They’re even more fucked in the head than we are. 😊

Amen Amen Amen.